I believe with my whole heart and soul that “health works and life works”. Hence my name. When we are healthy, we are in balance. When life is working, we are in balance. Yes, things come our way. Most of the time it shows us where we are out of balance.
Belief systems play a part of the “health works – life works” deal. Beliefs that no longer serve us will trip us up. (You will get sick or your life won’t work.) That is so we will look at them and heal them. Some times it is easy, sometimes it isn’t.
If you have followed my blog/articles, you will have a little bit of my life. November 07, my husband was released from his job in upper management in health care. We moved in late spring 08. I started a new job, right away. At that time, I experienced severe overwhelm. I have a NEW appreciation for what stress can do to a person. I have a felt sense of the told stress takes on the human body. My preceptor would tell me something and I would just look at her. I would think to myself… “She just spoke to me? What did she say to me? What am I supposed to do?” etc. I would eventually figure it out, but there was quite a time lag.
Finally, this spring, I felt like I was getting myself back. I was getting my stride, if you will at my job and as a teacher of energy healing.
Last wednesday, my husband was released from his job. “Freed up future”. “Free to roam the country”. “Canned”. Whatever you call it… out of a job. Apparently his employer decided to cut that job title do to the economy. They gave him 1 week severance. He has been in this position before but he as always received a fair severance and out placement services (where they help/support you in finding a new job). This time, we are left high and dry.
The shock is pretty deafening. It is amazing how this just throws you back into overwhelm and ‘your stuff”.
I don’t know what will happen. I don’t know what this will look like. It isn’t feeling to good in the moment. I have had a whole host of emotions from being OK to rage to despair. This is pretty normal, I would guess. Ya have to honor the anger and let it flow through in constructive ways so that it doesn’t get stuck and become despair.
So I am on this journey of… I don’t know what. The future is pretty much open. It is very scary. The good news is that one kid just graduated from college and the other will in December.
There are some things that I am going to start working on. First will be to write down my gratitude list. While every thing may be falling a part, there are many things for which I am grateful. I have a good job. My employer will put us on insurance. I have a big family network and am getting lots of support. I have food in my refrig and had a very nice/healthy dinner. I have a cat. I have a nice car. It is full of gas. I have friends. (And I have a counselor!) I will work on expanding this, as I am sure that I will need it in the coming days.
Follow me and I will keep you posted on my journey as I dismantle my life and rebuild it.